mr-monte-hall wrote:I'll keep this as short as I can so that it might get read.

About two years ago I'd screwed up several auctions of a member of the Acaeum community because I had a problem with his buying and selling methods.

It wasn't the first time. bclarkie correctly surmised I'd been responsible for several similar attacks in previous years. All the attacks attributed to "vecnapoop" were solely my doing.

Say what you will about my attitude or my actions. What I regret most is not having the balls to fess up and take accountability for my actions but rather to cower in a corner and blurt stupid excuses and lies like some indignant retard. I think a person can atone for actions, but not for lying about them or covering them up.

bclarkie also correctly identified my alias of greyhawk-fan and the trouble I'd caused for this site with that userid. That was just stupid and there is no excuse for it. I was angry for my own behavior, and it was misdirected at the members of this site.

For anyone who actually believed anything I'd said since that time, I apologize. I apologize to any posters I'd attacked since then, and to the administrator of this site. I apologize to anyone who had nothing to do with any of this but had to sift through the circus I'd contributed to.

I wanted to set the record straight. It may be that no one remembers or that no one cares. It makes me sick that I never admitted to it. I don't have anything to add to that.

Thanks for fessing up. I believe I was one of the sellers you messed with, by buying several items you had no intention of paying for, and you used several ebay ids to harass other ebay sellers/resellers and Acaeum members.

It does take a lot of balls to come back here and basically throw youself to the wolves by admitting the truth. Recently, I had actually been following your "Mr-Monte-Hall" ebay id for some time now wondering if I should fuck that gig up for you since you had started using it again. I didn't because hell I have better things to do with my time. That doesn't mean I have one iota less piss-hate for you, it's just that I have a life and I don't like to engage in bullshit for the sake of bullshit, basically getting down to your level.  

Honestly I myself am not a very forgiving person for total asshole-ness of the level you demonstrated, but if you are sincere I can at least ignore you.  Actions speak louder than words although I can't say what you could do to atone for your actions .  Im going to go into speculation and assume you have had an event in your life, or entered some sort of therapy, rehab, etc that requires you to "confront" people you have harmed in the past and make amends, and this is you way to make good on this.  If so good luck to you I hope it works out. However the absolute level of planning in your attacks frankly weirds be out, and I'll never trust you again no matter what.  What anyone else thinks of you I don't know but I wouldn't bet on being "buds" here with anyone even with your confession.

Mike B.

As an aside, I think its interesting bclarkie (where is he now) nailed it AGAIN, so those he has called out in the past who denied wrong doings should be mindful.

Or, everyone else should be mindful about the people he has called out

Badmike wrote:Im going to go into speculation and assume you have had an event in your life, or entered some sort of therapy, rehab, etc that requires you to "confront" people you have harmed in the past and make amends, and this is you way to make good on this.  If so good luck to you I hope it works out. However the absolute level of planning in your attacks frankly weirds be out, and I'll never trust you again no matter what.  What anyone else thinks of you I don't know but I wouldn't bet on being "buds" here with anyone even with your confession.

Continuing the speculation . . .

Remember that you are apologizing to put your past behind you.  Our acceptance or rejection of said apology is not the issue.

Now make the apology more than lip service by not effing doing it again.  And don't forget the financial amends that are forthcoming to those that you wronged --- sellers like BadMike?  Foul for having to deal with your shit?

mr-monte-hall wrote:
To John and Mike. I didn't intend a second post but in trying to be brief I was way too vague.

The explanation of my actions is also a promise for whatever it's worth that the attack on Mike's auctions in February 2008 was and will be the last attack on him or anyone at the Acaeum. I used "attack" elsewhere in my post where I only meant nasty spars on this forum or stupid tattling with the greyhawk-fan ebay userid.

You probably think there's some kind of twelve steps happening here. There isn't. I'm not interested in forgiveness. I'm interested in doing the best I can to correct a major character flaw of mine. So as you said John, your rejection or acceptance of what I have to say is not the issue.

Inparticular Mike, I'd lose respect for you if you forgave me. At least I would if you did it before we'd settled our differences outside a half price books somewhere in Texas. We'll never see eye to eye or be "best buds" as you say. I think we can both live with that.

I don't mean it to sound harsh or rude but I've already accomplished what I set out to do with my first post. I tried to set the record straight. If there are still questions I'll try to answer whatever else you like but I would prefer to avoid disrupting your forum further.

I can live with that.  If nothing else, thanks for coming here and admitting your mistake.  I hope you are getting help or improving that character flaw that led to your meltdown/behavior, and I mean that sincerely.

Mike B.

Probably want to exclude Hitler, Pol Pot, Idi Amin and some others.

If Hitler, et al, are sellers on ebay, then yes...

RaisedFromTheDead wrote:Geek, keep in mind that Monte is doing this for personal benefit, not, as he himself stated, to right any past wrongs, but to change a character flaw.

But isn't that how it all works?

Once he's a better person...